I ate a doughnut and it was Fabulous.

Today, we stopped by a small doughnut shop.  What can a person expect when walking into a doughnut shop?  Temptation everywhere, right?!  No temptation, I already decided I would have ONE doughnut.  It was wonderful.

Saving up my sugars, I can have an occasional dessert.  How do I save up my sugars?  I have coffee with half & half, but no sugar.  I do not add sugar to anything and I do not do sugar substitutes.  When I make cookies, I make my own flour mix of unbleached all purpose flour, coconut flour, and barley flour. ( The barley flour I make myself by pouring a box of flour in the blender and pulverizing it until it looks like flour, it takes less than a minute.)  I use only 3/4 of the sugar in the recipe, and I add an extra egg.  This is not a recipe though, it is just how I can eat cookies that taste like cookies.   The substitutes cause me to feel I am doing all in my power to make healthy choices.  This way, when I really want something I can be sensible and enjoy it without guilt.

Let us continue talking about saving up my sugars.  When I make up some oatmeal, I use extra cinnamon straight with no sugar, and walnuts, and butter.  I drink tea without sugar.  The other day, I did have a dr. pepper when I was not feeling good, and it did help me feel better.  Usually, I do not have sugared beverages.  It all can add up to an increased waistline.  Perfection is not my thing, just reasonable in the circumstances I am in at the time.  At a wedding I will have a piece of cake.  One is enough.

Being a diabetic I strive to have good blood sugar levels and thus an A1C reading that reflects my hard work.  Exercise is critical whether it is taking a walk, or doing floor exercises, riding a stationary bike, or just raising the legs up while in a chair.  Safety first when doing exercises, everyone has their own unique situation.  I strive to start some form of exercise soon after having a dessert or higher carb meal.

I have an area set up in my home for exercise, I call it my Diabetic Control Center.  A ballet bar to keep me steady while I do some stretches or legwork my physical therapist instructed me in.  Light weights for my arms and shoulders.  Bands to help with stretching.  And a large mirror, which helps me to monitor correct posture and form.  It is a very cheerful area, there is no intimidation here.

Later, in the afternoon my youngest son, Brent, age 20 came in with a box containing a few doughnuts.  My husband reached in and got a doughnut to enjoy.  I already had my doughnut and therefore, I turned it down.  Being content, I just did not want any.  Was I tempted?  Yes, for a moment, then I remembered, if I eat a doughnut, I will have a doughnut around my middle.  No thank you.

When your fat, your not Just Fat!

It is too easy to be fat. Why, you can be fat without even trying. One day I was too thin an stressing over it, and now I am carrying more pounds than my little bones were meant to carry an I am stressing over it.

Does a person say, “oh, I think I will get fat today”?  If a person is responsible for the lbs that are creeping on, usually they are unaware of the little habits contributing.  Usually it becomes a daily habit of comfort. Stopping for the cappuccino or frappinchino or breakfast on the run at a drive thru.  When I was in my mid thirties I started having one Dr. Pepper each afternoon at work it didn’t take long to notice I was gaining weight. I stopped this an the weight came back off. Little habits can do you in, or they can undo all your hard work.  If I am at a restraunt I really think about the beverage I am ordering. You can have a healthy meal but the beverage can throw your calorie and carbohydrate count off. Refills come too easy. I think I will have water.

So many like myself have gained weight thru the medications they have taken and are taking. We feel powerless. Every time I do a round of antiobotics with steroids I gain 3 – 5 lbs a week. I have to use the medications quite often. This is what I have to contend with. Do I take this laying down?  No!  I try to stretch an exercise each day and eat a healthy diet. I do these things because overall they are in my control. If I didn’t do them I would be much heavier than I actually am. The fabulous thing is we must keep doing what is good for us even if it all seems to go without results, it is good for us. We must continue investing in our better selves. This optimism can help us to combat depression and a state of helplessness. We have to view our situation as temporary.  There has been times I was so sick that I entertained death and I lost the living attitude.  Emotionally it is painful coping with long term illness. It is too easy to give up on ourselves. We can not give up on living, we must just learn to live differently.

My situation is ongoing an I have accepted the fact it is ongoing. Coping with the effects of chronic illness is like learning to parent a very disruptive child. We must exercise love for the child, feed, nourish it and provide security.  It is not stuffing bad child with donuts to shut him up, which in turn will lead to worse behavior. Nor, do we treat ourselves with such unloving ways. Our mind and body needs to feel satisfied, safe an well cared for. That does not mean indulgence.  I like to thank Jehovah an to let him know I feel appreciation for the abundance of food available to nourish my body and that I always need his guidance to make wise choices.

How do I indulge?  I eat two little dark chocolate dove squares after my lunch. I eat them very slowly an I truly savor the flavor.  I am satisfied. Yum.